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Ten years is a long time when you\u2019re thirty-two. We\u2019d seen our share of ups and downs, but I could honestly say, they were mostly up. That\u2019s the thing about happiness though. It lulls you into a false sense of security. <\/span><\/p>\n Neither one of us ever thought we\u2019d ever be touched by crippling loss or immeasurable grief. But not all stories have a happy ending, and I knew, better than anyone, that sometimes, one of you won\u2019t make it till the end. One of you has to go first. And one of you will be left behind to pick up the pieces.<\/p>\n That one is me.<\/p>\n But starting over isn\u2019t what I thought it would be. I need escape from the memories that plague me, remind me. So I went back to where it all began. To the town where I was born. To the place whose beauty could pierce my pain. Where I experienced my first kiss, where I fell in love, where a man was my earth. And I\u2026<\/p>\n I was his sky.<\/span><\/p>\n I never really appreciated the businesses open 24\/7 until I stopped going out when the sun was up. But I\u2019d come to find this necessity such a relief, I was close to sending the good people at Thrifty Corporate offices a thank you note. I could leave my house at midnight and buy a big-ass bottle of quality gin, a pint of the best mint chocolate chip ice cream in the world, and a jumbo-sized bottle of weed killer.<\/span><\/p>\n The guy at the cash register made a point of eyeing my products. So much so, for a split second, I wondered if I\u2019d forgotten to wear pants. He had an obnoxious, patronizing smirk plastered to his face when he asked, \u201cBig night planned?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n His customer service skills left a lot to be desired, and I was in no mood to take shit from anyone. So, I gave it to him honestly.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cOh yeah,\u201d I enthused, trying to remember if I\u2019d brushed my teeth that day. \u201cFirst,\u201d I said holding up a single finger, \u201cI\u2019m gonna get drunk. Second,\u201d I continued with two fingers and noticed he was staring at my chest, \u201cI\u2019m gonna murder the plant my husband gave to me.\u201d That\u2019s about the time his eyes met mine again. \u201cAnd for my big finale,\u201d I patted the tub of ice-cream lovingly, \u201cI\u2019m gonna eat my feelings.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n He had no response, whatsoever, to my smartass comments or manner, so I took my items, leaned in on my elbows, and gave him some solid, retail advice. \u201cYou know, it\u2019s just a normal Saturday night for any single girl. Put these three items on a primary end-cap and sales will soar.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n Again, he didn\u2019t find me funny.<\/span><\/p>\n I thought I was fucking hilarious.<\/span><\/p>\n A few hours later, I was on my fourth homemade Grey Goose cocktail. This consisted of gin and Diet Coke, because these were the things I had in the house. Not to mention the jar of maraschino cherries, which made for a lovely garnish.<\/span><\/p>\n Sometime after my third drink, I\u2019d gotten into Nick\u2019s CDs. With cocktail number four in hand, I stood in my front yard, <\/span>Don\u2019t Stop Believing<\/span><\/i> blaring through the open windows\u2014on repeat\u2014and looked at the mess I\u2019d made. My previous plan for the night was to simply shut my broken heart up by drowning it in liquor, then drowning that plant with poison. I thought\u2026if I killed the plant, I could somehow move on from the pain. But the closer I got to home, my plan morphed into something a little more\u2026sinister. The gin helped, of course, but I had two years of livid, confused emotions I\u2019d denied for far too long, chomping at the bit for release.<\/span><\/p>\n I walked into the shed and saw the area dedicated to the care of that plumeria. I filled the wheelbarrow with big sheers and a shovel. My intention to release the plant from the earth was foiled by rock-hard soil which required me to soften it up with a little water. While a shallow pond formed around my flip-flop clad feet, I gave the offensive blooms their last trim and final rites.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cForever\u2019s a long time, isn\u2019t it, little flowers? I bet you thought that nice man would take care of you until the end of time?\u201d Then I opened the bottle of weed killer and poured it on top of the neat pile of blooms. \u201cWrong, wrong, wrong!\u201d I said, shaking my head as I bathed them in poison.<\/span><\/p>\n I don\u2019t know which one of my concerned neighbors called the cops. But if it had been me, and I knew what happened to that poor woman in the blue house, even if it had been two whole years, I would have minded my own fucking business and hoped she only had one night of power ballads in her<\/span><\/p>\n But sadly, no such luck. The flash of blue and red lights in my periphery reminded me what I hated about my neighborhood: around here, no one wanted to get involved in anyone else\u2019s business. No one warned you to move your car before you got that ticket on street sweeping day. Everyone seemed to be suspicious of everyone else. When I was growing up, my brother and I spent summers and some holidays at our aunt and uncle\u2019s place outside of Guerneville. Even now, with Johnny-Law approaching, I recalled how my uncle left in the middle of dinner one night because the neighbor\u2019s truck needed to be pulled from a ditch. He didn\u2019t ask the guy if he\u2019d called Triple A. He said, \u201cBe right there, buddy.\u201d That\u2019s the kind of place I wanted to live. Somewhere with kind, considerate neighbors.<\/span><\/p>\n I wouldn\u2019t even think of asking my neighbors for a cup of sugar. Not that they\u2019d answer the door. But this was all good, because these seemingly-small things were the catalyst to change. It was that very moment when I realized I needed to move. Not just from the house, but from Southern California. As soon as the thought drifted into my head, I realized how relieved it would make my parents. They\u2019d watched me go through the motions, but I couldn\u2019t move on if I stayed here. Everywhere I went, everything I did, had some kind of connection to Nick and my life with him. <\/span><\/p>\n Finally, I was met with the phrase, \u201cMa\u2019am, we\u2019ve had some calls from your neighbors\u2026\u201d After that, I tuned out and answered \u201cyes\u201d or \u201cno\u201d to their questions when it was warranted. As intoxicated as I was, I managed to rein in my gin-surliness in order to avoid incarceration. But there was a small crowd gathered on my sidewalk. These same people had likely watched from afar while my life fell apart and did not one thing to offer help.<\/span><\/p>\n When I looked at the older couple that lived next door, I moved closer, close enough they\u2019d be able to hear me and anyone else nearby. I used to drop a plate of cookies on their doorstep every Christmas, but not once had they thanked me.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cYou\u2019ve seen the entire show, haven\u2019t you?\u201d I asked quietly, not wanting the officer to hear. But the old man just kept hold of his wife and stared beyond me. But I knew he was the \u201cman,\u201d the \u201chusband,\u201d the half-of-a-whole I\u2019d never have again. \u201cYou watched from your porch while a black limousine parked in front of my house. You would\u2019ve seen me collapse, wracked with so much pain, my dad and brother had to carry me to the car. I came home to an empty house, stopped answering the door, and never, not once, did you come to offer a kind word. You saw us together,\u201d I whispered. \u201cWe should\u2019ve been you\u2026and lucky, you\u2019ve had a lifetime together. Think about that the next time you rob a woman of her grief.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cMa\u2019am,\u201d the officer started behind me. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cShame on you,\u201d I said and walked away.<\/span><\/p>\n I went back to my house, ignoring the officer who followed, and walked inside. I turned off the stereo and closed the windows. Then I returned to the officer waiting on my front porch. \u201cI just need to shut the water off, and I\u2019m all done for the night.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n He didn\u2019t seem at all satisfied with my cooperation. \u201cIs there someone we can call for you?\u201d He made a point of looking at my hand. \u201cYour husband?\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n Two years\u2026 two, and I still hadn\u2019t taken off my wedding rings.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cI\u2019ve gone back to my maiden name, Officer.\u201d I hoped that would be explanation enough.<\/span><\/p>\n He looked to his partner and nodded. Whatever that was meant to convey, I had no idea. But he handed me a business card. \u201cIf you need me, Miz\u2026\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cTruscott. Rylie, Truscott.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n He closed the distance between us and warily glanced behind him. \u201cIf you need me,\u201d he said quietly, \u201cyou give me a call. I\u2019m only a few blocks away.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cI assure you, I won\u2019t have any reason to call.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n Then he stepped a little closer. \u201cPlease don\u2019t do anything stupid.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n His words weren\u2019t meant to insult me, in fact, they communicated genuine concern he seemed to feel for a fellow human, and for that, gratitude welled up in me and formed in my eyes.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cI won\u2019t do anything stupid. I promise,\u201d I said and looked at the house, \u201cI\u2019m done here.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n And I meant every word. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n She has always enjoyed writing and at one time thought she might be a singer\/songwriter. The ‘writer’ part is that one that stuck.<\/p>\n Julie is obsessed with Pi…the equation and the food. She’s allergic to cats, cantaloupe and hates mushrooms. So if you ever want to give her a gift, those are out for sure.<\/p>\n She currently lives with her romance hero husband and two boys in Melbourne, Australia.<\/p>\n WEBSITE<\/b><\/a> | <\/span>FACEBOOK<\/b><\/a> | <\/span>TWITTER<\/b><\/a> | <\/span>GOODREADS<\/b><\/a><\/p>\n \n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" New from J.B. Hartnett! WATCHING THE SKY CRY This\u00a0beautifully written, emotional story is releasing September 24th! Find\u00a0Watching the Sky Cry on Goodreads! Blurb Ten years is a long time when you\u2019re thirty-two. 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Julie is a southern California native, a fan of a really good story (preferably a romance with a happily ever after), really good pie (preferably pumpkin)and copious amounts of coffee (preferably Folgers).<\/span><\/p>\n